I feel so good! I miss this feeling. I know you’re probably like, “What is she talking about?” Well, I’ve been going to the gym since this past Saturday, and it has made a world of difference in how I react to the world and myself. Usually, I’m so depressed and don’t want to do anything. Mainly because I feel like no matter what I do, there is no way for me to gain true happiness. I know the happiness has to come from with in, in order for no one to be able to take it away, but that’s something I struggle with. For so long I’ve allowed others to determine how I feel about myself, that’s going to change. I’m going to learn to take full responsibility for my feelings and actions, something I should have done a long time ago.
I can’t explain how good it’s made me feel to get up and workout. Granted, everyday isn’t easy getting out of bed at 5 in the morning, but it’s well worth it. Knowing that I’m helping my body get in the best shape of my life is like trying something knew. You’re not sure if you’re going to like it once you do it, but at least now you have the experience. This is especially true for me, because I have been a big girl all of my life. I’ve never experienced being skinny or even slim thick, if that is even a real thing. All my life I have been bigger than everyone my age. When I say bigger I don’t mean 20 pounds or 40 pounds heavier, I mean 50 to 100 pounds. Let me give you an example, in 3rd grade most kids were maybe 60 to 80lbs. Me on the other hand, I was 183lbs in third grade! I thought maybe I had an inactive thyroid, but that wasn’t the problem. What turned out being the problem was the food I was eating, everything I ate was processed.
I didn’t learn until later what processed food did to the body. Let’s just put it like this, it’s not good. That’s why I’m trying to change my ways now, while I still can. I don’t know about you, but I want to live for a long time. And not like how these other people are (Existing). I want to be up and getting around like a 20yr old until the day I die, living life the way I choose, not the way others expect me too. Living on your own terms is and always will be the true definition of life.
Make sure to check back in with me, because I plan to do a before and after every month, so you can see the difference working out has made in my life. By watching my journey I hope to inspire you to take one of your own, and it doesn’t have to be fitness. It is anything that you’ve always wanted to do but never have because you never seemed to have the time or the energy.
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